SEPTEMBER LOVE

Last day of my favorite month, here you are.
It's a new season and probably my favorite. I am over Summer and its heat. They can hit the road and won't be missed. A few good TV shows start up again, including New Girl! I also turned 24 years old (wow) within the first week and Jada turned 4 the following week. I love birthdays! Interestingly enough, every week of this month I have at least 2-3 family members with a birthday.

September became far more special when Holliday and I welcomed our second child, a son, Aubrey Michael to the family on September 9th. As excited as I was to finally have a son, I was also nervous. Nervous to see him and look at the reality of another child aside Jada. It's mind blowing to have 2!

But it's also really cool to be able to say I have kids. The idea is just crazier than it truly is. It is so natural to see, hold, and love this boy. I'm looking forward to each milestone and keeping an eye out for the gifts he already has inside to bloom. I'm looking forward to watching him and Jada grow together and seeing what kind of relationship they'll have. And what kind of parents Holliday and I will grow into.

What's pretty exciting about this season is that it is totally brand new to me. I get to spend a few months taking care of this little baby. It's a blessing to not have to go right back to work this time and to be available. I have a feeling I am about to discover some new things about myself and what I want in life. 

SUMMER SO FAR

I have taken the summer "off" for a few reasons. Mainly because I had a very stressful Spring semester in school and with this new baby coming , I felt extra pressure to finish as much as I could and then decided that it's bogus to think like that. There is no reason whatsoever that I need to rush through school. Some days I miss structure and schedule and then I have to tell myself that I am blessed with this season in life. I get to have this time with Jada while she is still an only child and take a breather to do things we enjoy. I will come out of this refreshed with a new perspective and having a better understanding of what Meggan's next move is. Until then...

xo

5 Years Post HS Graduation.

After the graduation ceremony was over I think I kind of stood around alone and looked around at everything. I believe I was either numb or severely underwhelmed. My best friend and I didn't even get a single picture together. I have like 9 signatures in my yearbook, probably all from Drama Club :). I hold all those teen movies in the 90s responsible for all of my High School disappointments!

Perhaps we're told that those are the greatest years of our lives because our responsibilities are limited to just ourselves for the most part. I will reevaluate the "best years" once life has truly past. None of us know. I can appreciate everything about those times but feel that these current times are better simultaneously. 

5 Years later

I am married

I am a mama of 1 and another soon to come

I consider God's will for my life and not just my own

I am more secure

I am in the Army Reserves

I live in Alabama....wow :P

I don't go to the beach nearly enough

I am still wearing clothes from High School

I keep in touch with the tiniest handful of old friends

I can cook!

I still love to make things pretty.

 

THOUGHTS ON THURSDAY

This summer has started on a great note. We had an amazing Memorial Day weekend in which I was able to have my husband home for four days straight. Score. We made the most of each day and spent some good time with some good people. 

This is the first time it has felt like a "summer break" in a very long time. After fighting with myself on whether not I was going to attend school this summer, I made the decision to put some credits on hold, take Jada out of her little people school program, and make the most out of this summer with her in the last season that she is an only child. 

I just want to be calm, happy, and fulfilled with the people and activities that make me happy. I wrote down in my journal this morning: What do I want out of this season? How do I want to come out and what will be accomplish? I haven't answered it just yet but I do know it is a time for growth. And I don't just mean this roundness on my abdomen. 

Oh yes and plenty of Art.

SPRING

Alabama surprised me with how long it stayed chilly. I remember swimming in springs in February growing up in Florida.  Thank God for warmer temps. 

I haven't touched this blog since December ish? I feel like the cold months make me not want to do much, let alone move. I felt like a total bum because all I could wear to stay warm were a bunch of layers that I couldn't care about matching. Toasty and cozy took precedence over style. I know it does not have to be that way so I shall be prepared for you next time, Winter!

There's a lot of great movement happening in not just this obvious "season", but this season of life. 

Currently

I have felt like blogging a lot lately but have decided to spend my computer time on Pinterest looking at tattoos and tattoo inspiration instead. I kind of have a problem.
Another reason may be because I have a fear of pouring too much into a blog entry and that's not what I want to be doing. But currently...

Watching: The X Factor, Tia and Tamera, and Catfish. I really loved the X Factor last season and I look forward to my evenings alone to watch the DVR'd episodes of this season. I have some favorites now. I am a voter too, yes. I gave American Idol a chance one season and got too emotionally involved and I hated it L.O.L. Can't get all mad because the one I wanted didn't win. It's not like I'm the one getting the recording contract anyways... 

I love Tia and Tamera!!!! I loved Sister Sister and they are incredibly funny and entertaining to watch. Truly genuine women that don't make you feel guilty for being into a reality TV show. 

MTV's Catfish is probably the only good thing among the heap of trash on that network. Can we bring back TRL, Unplugged, Diary, and Making the Video please??!?!? I encourage you to check ouyCatfish. It's a TV show version of the documentary.

Listening to: I am currently piecing together bits of a play I am writing so I have been listening to a lot of poppy girly songs. The entire cast will consist of teenage girls so I am setting the mood in my mind and it helps me create the characters and their girly nature. Songs like Avril Lavigne's "What the Hell", Britney Spears' "Do Something'", Gwen Stefani "Now that You've Got it" and so on. Basically any song that makes you picture a bunch of girly girls swingin' their pony tails. ha! Not giving away too much until it is finished and official ;)

Planning: I guess the day before Thanksgiving it would be expected that I would say I am planning for the holidays. Not so much. At all. I love food and family, but Thanksgiving seems like too much pressure. I have nothing prepared and will not know what is going on with my family until we wake up in the morning. Regardless, we will eat. Whether it is a turkey, Golden Coral, or some mini bbq pulled pork sandwiches on Hawaiian rolls. As long as I can eat some pie, I will be happy.

Thinking about: I am a woman and I think about too much for the internet to contain. But mostly, I'm thinking about this play I am trying to develop. Also that I need to take more pictures, read, workout, and paint more. Time management, prioritizing, staying motivated and energized!

Looking forward to: I was in my first show in 4 years last week and my PASSION for performance art was resurrected. I also am choreographing a praise dance for a Christmas production. So I am looking forward to doing more acting and more dancing. I auditioned for a film a couple days ago and waiting to hear back from them on that. There are 2 more shows to audition for within the next couple months. I  love that I am able to do what I love NOW. 

Reading: Nothing outside of assignments in Literature but I am going to work on a list of books to read for the new year. Nothing has captured me since The Lovely Bones I read 2 years ago haha.

Making me happy:

No explanation needed.

Happy Thanksgiving.

xoxo Meggan

OCTOBER WAS

Colder.

Stressful.

Opportunistic.

Busy.

Rushed.

Blessed.

Unorganized.

Painful.

Colorful.

Uncomfortable.

Smiley.

Fresh.